What is something you want to "get off your chest"?

I can’t stop crying I feel so weird and I know I am

I think if I had children, I’d abuse them when I’m mad. That’s why I don’t want children. I don’t want to hurt them but these urges to just hit and throw and break stuff is so strong to the point I have to harm myself to get rid of it

And she ate half of the popcorn

What's the most valuable lesson you've learned in life, and how has it impacted your journey so far?

I can’t even think about actually eating other stuff

I hate her she’s so annoying and always touching and hitting me but I don’t know why I put up with it

I can’t anymore I just hate it

How do you help patients stop hearing voices?

He cried and I let go but I still pulled him out to kick him out

I want to but I can’t

I just feel so bad. My sister never got one cause at the time they were poor (I wasn’t alive then) and I’m spoiled now and I can do things she couldn’t when she was younger

Why do a lot of autistic people not know how to style their hair?

About all my friends

I want to be a boy

They’re both small dogs

Why do flat Earthers still exist even though it is scientifically proven that the Earth is spherical?

Sometimes it’s funny but I’m just so tired of feeling out of place with everyone

I also look at people dying and being abused like gore shit

I’m 15 btw idk if anyone will ever read this or maybe myself when im older

What are 50 random facts about yourself?

I masturbate every once a while to porn and I hate it but it feels good and every time after I do it I feel disgusting and horrible

But I just wanna disappear and not exist. I don’t like this world. I like my life but not how I live or how this world functions

I’d go the the movies with her sometimes and watch movies on tv with her and sit in the living room with her but that’s just about it

How can someone determine if their partner is in another romantic relationship, particularly if they do not live together?

.dont tell me to get help, I’m fully aware that I need it.

I miss her so much and I feel so much guilt . I was close with her

I think it’s my depression but idk maybe it’s me cause I’d never want to call anyone incuinf her

Why do I like to eat my own cum?

I just pulled frosty out under my bed by his arm even though I knew it would hurt

and I’m such a picky eater

I want to kill myself but I know I can’t. I have a quince coming up and my mom and dad would have wasted ten thousand on it . I wish I knew how much it’d cost

Hillary thinks we must censor or "we lose total control". Why does she demand total control?

this is a rant/vent and not worth reading. Major tws here for a bunch of shit

My body my voice, especially my voice

I eat the same thing every other day . Pasta, macaroni, fries, beans (or sometimes eggs) with tortillas, and sometimes cheese bread from little Cesar’s. Its the same fucking thing every day

Why do many women wear sleeveless shirts, more so than men?

My grandmothers death isn’t helping either

I can’t even do the simplest things like washing my own dish or picking up the dogs poop and I make such a big deal about it every single fucking time

I grabbed him and was about to do it but I stopped because I didn’t want to hurt him

What was something you did naughty with your cousin?

And my fucking phone wouldn’t let me know when she would call and when she would leave voice mails saying to call her back when I can and that she loves me

I wouldn’t have done it if I knew

Likes we’re not siblings

Why do so many men wait until they are retired or close to it to start having sex with Men? Most of them say they have always wanted to suck dick or be fucked. Why did you wait?

And this voice and body, I hate it. I sound like a little girl and I look like a kid. I don’t want to be a girl

I gave it to my friend so she can sneak in popcorn for me, that I gave her money to buy for me since they wouldn’t let me

There’s been times I’ve done it to drawn feral porn and I hate it so much. Why do I like to put these bad things that I find so disgusting and hate it so much on myself as if I’m one of them

What were your fantasies when you reached puberty?

I think

I just feel so guilty about everything I do. I’m weird and I hate it and I don’t like myself

I never saw them cry and it hurt to see my dad especially cause he rarely does

It’s been a long time and I can’t handle it anymore

I’m afraid that whatever this is, my anger issues and depression, is gonna cause me to hurt someone I love in the future

Max was under there too so I tried getting him out and he growled and I hit him again and again each time

Just wanted to put it out there

I made a new friend though and I’m happy about that

I genuinely don’t know what to think of myself anymore

My arm rlly hurts rn cause I just scratched it to the bone

“your mom” that rlly hurts though when she say it

I hate myself so much

I hate it

I hate seeing my dad my brother and siblings cry

My heart hurts so much it feels like it’s being squeezed and thrown around

I don’t want that and I don’t know how to get rid of it but I’m scared to get help like what do I even say to them? That I hit and abused my dog and have the urge to hit and throw things and scream like I’m some abuser?

My room is a mess it’s like a hoarders house. I’m not even exaggerating. There’s clothes and random shit all over and I can’t even see the floor and I still keep bringing stuff in

Idk tbh

I think I’m scared to lose another friend

and I wasn’t raised like how I should’ve. I’m whitewashed and I get made fun of it

I think my mom favors me and that makes my sister have some kind of hidden dislike for me but I know she loves me

When I was younger (prob around 9-10h I got so mad that I thought of throwing max against the dresser really hard

Like I wanna fly and be an animal tbh

I told her to give it to me or my teacher or anyone she saw she knew that I KNEW in my part of the school and she gave it to some fucking stranger and I don’t know where it is now

He also has anger isssues I think. One time he got so mad that he threw a plate at the wall and it broke

I never returned a call. I never called first. I did answer some calls but it was short and whenever I went to her house (this all started to happen after I was maybe 11 between 13) I just stayed in my room and barley hung out with her

I can’t get rid of it. I wanna peel my skin off and hide away. I felt so exposed at school without my sweater

I never did that and I feel so guilt and bad after but I just did it again